Consistently, predictably, dependably, unwaveringly ERRATIC

I cannot tell you how much I've been annoying myself weighing the various factors of standing, January hot weather, night time cool, solo or with friends and how much any one combination would be likely to cause a relapse. Plus finances. (I've missed out on a number of purchases this way. Sometimes I think I really need to go with impulse more, then I tell myself to be more adult and responsible. It's so boring.)

But while no friends were available to go along, I checked the tickets one more time today - and there were seats! Limited number and I snagged a really good one so I am feeling very pleased.

My bank account isn't but oh well.

Christmas shopping in town tomorrow and I plan to take plenty of time and sit down breaks. Not too much to get but there are a few places I want to browse as well. The weekend is going to be a stinker so I will be laying low and recovering if possible.

I haven't even thought about Christmas baking.

Going to see Adam Lambert with Queen!!!

That's right, I'm going to see ADAM LAMBERT IN CONCERT!!!

*bounces around in excitement*

And would you believe this is my first real concert? (There was a Big Day Out when I was fourteen, which included my first and only experience in a mosh pit *shudders* but I didn't give a damn about any of the artists so I don't count that.)

I haven't gone to concerts for a variety of reasons which can be summed up thus:

1) Few musicians that I'm interested in manage to make it as far as Australia.
2) Finances (or lack thereof)
3) Transport (or lack thereof)
4) Many years of varying degrees of light and sound sensitivity which made nightclubs my idea of a personal hell.

When I found out that Adam would be performing in Sydney, I thought, I wish I could go ... then I looked up the location and ticket price and discovered to my delight that I could afford the ticket (then, luckily) and the venue was near a train station. My light and noise sensitivity is much improved so I probably won't get a screaming headache during the performance. And while I will undoubtedly feel like living hell for several days afterwards, sometimes it's worth it. And it will be nice to feel like crap from doing something I enjoy instead of from just getting a cold or reacting to a change in the weather. Yes, I realise that sounds weird.

I am VERY EXCITED about this (if you hadn't guessed already) but I haven't mentioned it before for a few reasons ...

Well, when I found out about the concert, I knew I wanted to go and I figured I'd wind up going alone because I didn't think any of my friends were into Adam's music but I asked my friend Pip anyway. (She went with me to the ballet once and I thought this would be closer to her style.) She said yes and a girl from her work was also interested. Pip suggested she buy the three tickets on her credit card rather then the three of us buying individually. I called her the night before the tickets went on sale and she thought I was calling about that. It took a few minutes before I could say, yes that's great but that's not actually why I'm calling.

I was calling to tell her that my dad had died the day before and would she come with me to his funeral, please? She was a bit startled. And she bought the tickets on the Monday and came with me to the funeral on the Friday and it was kind of hard to be excited about going to see a concert. Even Adam Lambert.

But now it's two months later and the concert is tomorrow and I AM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS!!!

*bounces some more*